IN THE SHADOW OF YOUNG MEN IN COLOUR.
IN THE SHADOW OF YOUNG MEN IN COLOUR.
"The snob not the one who likes snobs, and the one who cannot see
The duchess, not having found its charming; the homosexual not the one who
The one likes homosexuals, and who, seeing the African marksman,
Would like to make its friend ". The great exorcist of love,
Imagination and time - Marseilles PROUST - was the snob and
The homosexual. It the first among writers of the twentieth century
Has openly started talking in the products about homosexuality.
However, being afraid of public contempt, Proust carefully hid
The sexual predilections, and homosexual experiences
Heroes of the novel "In search of lost time" represented with
Poisonous jeer, devoting the best pages to the description
Heterosexual love. Though itself it was thus broken off from love to
To young men.
Present to me the love But at first there was a love to mother.
It seemed, an umbilical cord connecting the newborn of Marseilles with
Parent belly so never also it has not been broken off. "That you
You want in a gift by New year? "- asked Marseilles mother. On
That he responded: "Present to me the love". When Marseilles became
The adult, this communication has got more inventive character.
Living together with mother in one house, it is constant from it communicating, it
Every day sent to it from the office of the letter, in which
Shared with it stories about an event for a day. Its mother was
The Jew, and from it he has inherited huge, hot eyes, and also
Acquaintances to well-founded Jewish families. The father - the Frenchman,
The Catholic, the doctor, managed hygiene chair. Was in a life of Marseilles and
The grandmother which fidelity did not concede to the grandson parent love
And caress.
Tenderness, refinement, comfort with which Marseilles was with
The childhood it is shrouded, as if by a silk coverlet, promoted that,
That in an adult life Proust will appear in painful dependence from
Others. To it, as well as in the childhood, protection and caress will be necessary
Associates. Proust's illness, and he since nine years suffered an asthma,
Strengthened need of the writer in guardianship. Physicians consider, that an asthma
Arises at children or from a lack of attention from the party
Adults, or from its surplus, as has occurred at Proust.
Pleasure rukobludija. Illness was a flour and simultaneously
"The good fortune approaching, - as Proust, - to a reality wrote
That on that party of death ". Almost simultaneously with an asthma
Proust was grasped by one more illness - masturbatsija. As in those
Times masturbatsija concerned "serious diseases", Proust
Has been assured, that it is sick. He even admitted to friends that does not know,
Of what will die, - from an asthma or from masturbatsii. Since twelve years,
Having closed in a lavatory of the parental house, Marseilles indulged
Sweet pleasure rukobludija. Behind this employment it once has found
The father - and as the true physician did not begin to punish the son, and only
Has recommended to it to refrain from this hobby at least
Some days.
Naive council of the father-doctor, of course, in what has not resulted. Who
In a status, moreover at such naive age to refuse that
Pleasures, that earthquake falls upon the young man in
Time of its secret appointments alone with the hungry body!
Then the father to distract Marseilles from an addiction, has given
To it of money for a campaign in a brothel, but all has ended with crash. Ten
Francs with which the father has allocated to Proust for this hygienic
Procedure, have been spent for nothing. For excitement Marseilles has broken
Night pot, and for the same reason at it it has turned out nothing.
Then, in an adult life, it becomes the frequent visitor public
Houses, but there will serve it not girls, and young men.
Revelations of the young lyceum student. Attacks of an asthma and sincere
Unbalance have not prevented Marseilles to enter lycц e Kondorse
And with success it to finish.
Companions of Marseilles, giving to due its literary
To abilities, concerned it suspiciously. Proust seemed to them
Too sensitive and frank. To schoolmate Raul
Versini he admitted, that somehow one senior boy has seized it,
And not quite force, also that he about it at all does not regret. Though,
Probably, it was only the picture from those fantastic images,
That arose in Proust's head during its employment masturbatsiej.
To Jean Bizet, the son of the known composer, Marseilles will write: "I
Very much I require your friendship... My unique consolation is
To like and be liked ". And in the letter to cousin Jean Daniel Galevi,
Proust is even more frank: "There are young men who like
Other boys, always wish to see them (as I Bizet), cry and
Suffer far from them. They do not want anything else, except as
To kiss them and to sit at them in a lap. They like their body, caress
Eyes, name "road" and "my angel", write to them passionate
Letters, but not for the world would not be engaged in a paederasty. However
Frequently the love carries away them, and they in common masturbate. But not
Laugh at them. Eventually same the enamoured. And I do not know,
Why their love is unworthy usual love ".
The archangel with an orchid in a buttonhole and a revolver in a hand In a youth
Proust was unusually beautiful - especially impressed its hot,
As if decaying coals, eyes. Friends named its archangel, and Jean
Bizet has entered it into high society.
Beautiful, complementary, in a dress coat and with an orchid in a buttonhole,
Marseilles shone in salons of the women of quality of Paris. Here it
Has become closely acquainted with those who becomes its prototypes later
Heroes.
So, a baron de to Charles is written off from several familiar Marseilles.
He/she is the zealous admirer of footmen, carriers and lift attendants a baron
Doazan.
It and the pretentious fashion-maker, the first dandy of Parisian light
Prince Rober de Montesquieu who has withdrawn at a baron of the young hot
Argentinean Gabriel Itturi. (That a baron never has excused to it.)
Both a baron, and the prince had no objection to twirl the novel with Proust, but to it,
The same as also to it, young men liked only. To do a favour
To the prince, Proust has somehow acquainted him with devjatnadtsatiletnim a handsome man
The pianist Leon Deljafossom which very quickly became intimate
The friend to the prince. As to Marseilles and its love affairs,
It was extremely cautious: Proust was afraid to injure mother and to call
Discontent of a secular society, which at that time for it
Meant it is too much.
In 1894 Marseilles approaches with composer Rejnaldo Anom,
The Jew who was born in Venezuela. This novel - with passion,
Jealousy, quarrels, joint travel - lasted two years.
Soon Ana the son of the writer of Gigolo Dode has replaced Ljusen Dode.
Seventeen-year-old Ljusen was the sample of typical representation about
Volume as the homosexual looks: twisted, pomaded,
Tinted, with womanly manners and a squeaky voice. But that
That concerns Proust, at all its delicacy, in him were
Will and character. So, in 1896 it has published the collection
Stories "Joys and days". One literary critic, and too
The homosexual, has written the review on the collection. Venomously beating
That to Marseilles was possible to receive the foreword of Anatole France,
The critic has made witticisms, that for the following book Proust will receive the foreword
Gigolo Dode who cannot give up to the son. The hint was too
The obvious. Proust has called the writer on duel. All has done without
Tragical consequences: opponents have politely exchanged shots
In air. But Proust could protect the honour.
The tower from a pith tree Soon to secular idleness comes
The end. In 1903 Marseilles will lose the father, in two years - and
Mother. He takes hard their leaving, especially death of mother. But
Together with loss Proust will find also freedom. Freedom to live and do
That would be desirable it. And an illness which always near to it, - gives
To Marseilles loneliness. From this freedom and loneliness the book will be born
- The most perfect book on light: "In search of the lost
Time ". Proust joins the literature, as some - to
Religions. Henceforth original Marseilles Proust will live in the past,
Taking from it page, episodes, fragments of the novel, and
The present is only necessary convention.
In 1906 Proust moves to parkway the Osmanli Turk in the house 102, where
Forces to upholster walls of a room with a stopper, that noise and life vanity
Did not stir to its concentrated job. Friends name it
"The sun of midnight", as all night long, surrounded with the note
Books, writing-books for notes, uncountable photos, it
Lays in bed and writes, and sleeps in the afternoon. In its room it is stuffy, and over
The bed headboard twists a cloud of aromas...
Death of parents has released Proust and from fear, that they
Will guess its sexual bents. From now on in the house
At Proust constantly there live young lovers, which it
Represents to friends as secretaries. In 1907 Marseilles, at
Which there was a car (on those times - refined luxury),
Has got the young and beautiful driver - devjatnadtsatiletnim
The native of Monaco Alfredom Agostinelli. After a while
Agostinelli will leave from Marseilles, and in 1912 again will offer the
Services. But at that time the writer had already other driver, therefore
Proust will give Alfredu a post of the secretary. Alfred will lodge at
Proust together with mistress Anna who gives out for the wife,
Also begins to copy the manuscript "In a direction to Svanu".
Anna's presence at all does not confuse Agostinelli,
Proust.
Caresses of a young handsome man get both to the mistress, and the owner.
Proust showers Alfreda with expensive gifts. And when Agostinelli
Marseilles though opposes to it will want to study as the pilot,
Will buy to it an airplane. In 1914 Alfred goes on the south
France also arrives in aviaschool. Making the second flight - over
Mediterranean sea, - it will be lost, having become history as the pioneer
Air accidents.
For Proust its б destruction becomes huge tragedy, and
Researchers of creativity of the writer will assert, that those
The confused relations which worry in its book the hero and
Albertina, for the first time appeared in the novel "In the shadow of girls in
To colour ", - mirror reflexion of that difficult love drama,
Which Proust has gone through with Alfredom.
Rat fights for reception orgazma Shortly before б destruction
Agostinelli Proust has met enterprising Albert de
Kjuzia. It was the Breton, the teenager arrived to Paris and
Arrived on service to Polish prince Konstantin Radziville,
Known for the predilection for men.
Then Albert has replaced some more owners, passing from hands in
Hands of greedy men to its hot body. Then de Kjuzia has based in
Paris the first public house for homosexuals - "Hotel
Marini ". Proust not only supported its money, but also itself became
The habitue of this brothel. Moreover, got to it on
To the inheritance from parents he has sold ancient furniture in this
The public house. It seemed, to Proust delivers pleasure to see,
As on family sofas and couches in the most frank poses
Cheerful boys and adult men somersault. Sometimes Proust
Brought here family albums and together with young visitors
Brothel considered photos of girlfriends of the of high society
Mothers. In all it there is some overdue revenge for that fear
Exposures that tormented its all years of a life with parents...
Having come in hotel and having chosen the boy, Proust went upward in
Room. The Boy-prostitute, having risen to Proust, found
The writer already laying in a bed, wrapped up with a bedsheet to
Chin. The boy stripped to the skin and, standing opposite to Proust,
Masturbated. Proust did the same, but under a bedsheet. When
All came to an end, the boy left, and not having touched to
To Proust. If it was not possible to Marseilles to achieve orgazma, he demanded,
That to it two cages with rats, not kormlennymi have brought a little
Days. Cages put on Proust's bed, a door in a door, and
Opened doors. Rats with exasperation snatched the friend on
The friend. The fight show helped Proust to achieve desired orgazma.
Run naperegonki with death In 1919 Marseilles has lost the
Apartment in parkway the Osmanli Turk - last fragile communication with family
Past. Its aunt without the prevention has sold the house, and new
The owner has decided to move tenants. Proust has located in
To the poor furnished flat reminding an ascetic cell
The writer-mystic.
Here, where from walls the big rags torn off overhung
Wall-paper, it has placed that was saved from things of the parental
At home, - carpets, chandeliers, services, books...
Proust's economy was conducted by young and beautiful woman Selesta
Albare. He so has got used to its services, what even began to dictate
Some fragments of the book. Marseilles almost ate
Exclusively coffee with milk. To cook food in apartment was
It is forbidden, as the slightest smell called it an asthma attack.
Near to its bed there was bamboo a little table, on which
Always there was a silver tray with a bottle "Evian", lime broth
And a candle to which had to burn day and night that it could
To light the powders for inhalations. Matches were forbidden because of
Sulfuric smell. Selesta never went to bed before seven
O'clock in the morning, because Proust working all night long,
Demanded, that to its call responded immediately. At a dawn it
Accepted veronal and slept from seven o'clock in the morning to three p.m.
Sometimes it strengthened a dose and slept two-three days on end.
Proust all leaves the house less often, but sometimes him still meet
Having supper in hotel "п п я " in a hall with extinguished light, in an environment
Waiters. One of contemporaries writes: "I have seen the person
Large, corpulent, with highly lifted shoulders, tightened in
Long coat. It has not removed it, as if patient who is afraid
Colds. Amazed its extraordinary person: a bluish flesh
The stale game, the big eyes of the Egyptian dancer; sunk down,
The shades led round by wide half moons; hair straight lines, black,
Cut badly and for a long time; moustaches started, black. At it a kind and
Smile of the fortuneteller. Despite the moustaches, it is similar on
The six-ten years' Jewish lady with traces of former beauty.
Young, old, sick and effeminate... "It seemed, Proust
Lived any more in this world, and in what has created itself. Being
It is absolutely close to the end, it has been anxious only by proofs of the
Books and amendments by which did on fields between two attacks
Asthma. In his eyes this work was run naperegonki with death.
And Proust's last phrase, shortly before death dictated
To Selesta, there were the lines devoted to death of writer Bergota: "It
Will bury, but all night long after burial, night with the shined
Show-windows, its books which have been spread out on three abreast, will be
To be awake, as angels with open wings, and to serve for
The one who already is not present in live, a revival symbol ".
On a mortal bed Proust could not give more than thirty.
It seemed, time which it has bridled and has subdued in the novel,
Has not dared to concern this eternal teenager.
Vladimir Kotyhov.
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